sore butt

Sep. 1st, 2020 10:36 pm
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I've been trying to ride _almost_ every day. Partially to try and lose weight, as the bare minimum thing I might accomplish in this tremendous downtime. (especially opportune when combined with the fact that I'm still not drinking soda because of the migraines.. probably down 600 calories a day right there) It's also become really the only activity in my life besides biological functions and staring at this screen.

Anyway, It's roughing me up. I have a saddle sore-junior, mostly from riding my cyclocross bike on trails, and my nipples are again chafed to bleeding, which is mostly due to the fact that all of my jerseys are old - I think the bike clothes companies make the fabric turn to steel wool after a year or two so you buy more new ones.

Last week I got 5 days and 80 some miles in. This week I've almost got 50 already. I seem to be losing about 6 lbs of water per ride (it's really humid here right now) but I'm not losing much other weight. At the same time, I can see more musculature and vasculature in my extremities, so I know at least a little fat is burning off. probably gaining muscle back is offsetting the loss.

The cross bike has been a good change of pace. I ride mostly the same trail over and over, and while it is the closest thing I've ever had to mastery, I'm really at the long tail of not getting much faster or doing anything new when using a mountain bike. I haven't used the cross bike on trails in about 2 years, after I fell and damaged my thumb. I started again last week, and it kind of re-opens the mastery conversation by being different enough that I'm back down the learning curve, but same enough that I'm having fun and not getting frustrated.

There are two difficult features on the trail. One is called "tetanus hill", and is basically a part of an abandoned car, an awkward chunk of concrete, and some wire fence sticking out the side of a levee. It's a steep climb with those obstacles, with not much run-up. The other is similar. Called "chunky monkey", it's a climb with little run-up, over a chunk of concrete and about 3 feet of big roots. These are the two things that I can't "clean" (traverse without stopping or putting a foot down) consistently on the cross bike. I have cleaned each of them at least once on it, but it's still iffy. Maybe that's exciting. I don't even think about them on the mountain bike. Along with this, I think falling the other day was good, because I haven't in a while. While it hasn't been the case in other areas of my life, I feel like falling reminds me that taking risks has rewards.. if I'm not falling, I'm not finding the edge of what I can do.

The cross bike has also reactivated something in my legs. I've had a couple of rides on it, where an hour in, I suddenly can just turn the crank over effortlessly. I don't know if it's muscle memory from when I used to ride it all the time, or if the biomechanics are better or what, but it's kind of nice.

colnago cyclocross bicycle

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Here's maybe something more interesting before the lousy stuff.. I paid for a real version of ableton a while back and have been messing around with it a bit. I had a chunk of time to make a tiny amount of progress on a couple of tunes. check out a couple short clips here if you're so inclined: soundcloud.com/jcharles00/couplethings


So the race.. It went pretty poorly. Link to the Strava report here: www.strava.com/activities/2416000026 I mostly attribute it to poor nutrition choices.. I made these rice cakes from a pretty common recipe.. but they had a ton of cream cheese in them. (for calories) The dairy seems to not have sat well on my stomach. I was already having GI problems before leaving the dorm. 

I followed a teammate for the first 20 miles at pretty fast speeds - over 20 a lot of the time. By the time I got smart and sat up from that, my stomach was hurting again. The climbing was harder than I'd remembered. The descending was awesome, but there was always a cautious (slow) person in front of me and I couldn't take full advantage. I don't think anything I was eating was actually making it to my bloodstream. after the first few climbs I was pretty worn out. 

I was struggling by the time I got to the first SAG stop at 65 miles. I had made pretty ok time, averaged 15 mph, but I stayed there for over an hour, a lot of that time in the bathroom. (thank god they had a bathroom! and thank goodness I packed a lot of wet-wipes) I ate some of the real food they provided, drank a coke and a bunch of water and chilled out. 

When I got back on the road, I still felt like crap, and the heat of the day was really on. I think it got up to 92 (though the garmin shows over 100?) and there was not a cloud in the sky, and not much shade to speak of. From the SAG to mile 99 where I stopped was terrible. I averaged 10mph. I started to feel like my legs were coming back a little, but the heat was killing me, and I was going so slow that I got really worried about water. I was taking shade stops wherever I could find them, and kept bumping into a few other groups doing the same. at about mile 94, I was starting to feel dizzy, and was really starting to think about bailing. I made it to the unofficial water stop at 99 and someone else managed to get enough cell signal to call for pickup, so I figured I ought to go as well. Had I stayed in, it would have been another 22 miles to the official water stop, and then another 30 before the next SAG, and then another 50 for the last l

As I well knew, pickup isn't exactly fun. it took over an hour for someone to get out to us, and then another hour drive looking for another rider before dropping us off at another SAG to wait for a ride back to Emporia. I will say that the ride along the course in the Jeep really made me glad that I didn't attempt it, because it was rough. The Jeep ride was also kind of nice because the guy told us a lot of interesting stories about the area. (I say us, the guy sitting next to me, a late 60's Purdue grad/chemical engineer, was passing out/getting sick so I don't think he was paying attention. haha. Thankfully the other guy that stopped with us who was talking about puking up blood was in a different truck) Anyway, there were a lot of things I'd like to investigate further - he mentioned a neighboring cattle town that was razed after a guy got shot for breaking a law about crossing the railroad tracks. Apparently early pioneers got paid to build stone walls everywhere by the government as a defense in case the civil war made it out that far. There were a lot of cool stone structures surviving, and I was a little jealous that Indiana doesn't have much that cool - but it made sense, we did log cabins because we had trees, they just had rock. The guy also offered me some of the KFC he had in the back. lol. 

Anyway, it sucks, but whatever. I saw some friends I hadn't seen in a while. Got to pet a puppy and some kittens, got to see some more of the flint hills, met some nice locals, etc. That said, I really don't want to ride a bike for a while, and I'm not ever doing this race again. I had kind of hoped for redemption this time, but I think I just need to accept that I can't do it. 


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Very sore today. I lifted weights yesterday morning, and then did a core routine and rode in the evening. I guess I felt guilty for not having done anything the past two days. 

I'm still struggling with the structured training. I was going back through the past couple of weeks of ride data and I think I have hit my numbers exactly once. I had been trying to target a heart rate range, but when I do that, I'm overshooting my power numbers. so I guess I will have to stick to the trainer and go by power. That works out ok I guess since it's basically rained every day this week and will continue as such. 

I found out a couple of weeks ago that Guitar center rents their lesson rooms without the lessons very cheaply. ($10 an hour) After an extended period trying to get in touch with the person in charge of them I booked one for this afternoon. I have electronic drums set up in the living room, but I've largely given up on them after playing the two shows I did in '17. 1. I was totally burnt out on playing drums and 2. the electronic drums lack the tactile feedback and inherent randomness (analogness?) of acoustic drums. I figure it will be nice just to go hit things, but maybe if I come up with anything inspired I can record it on my phone and use it to build something around. 

Speaking of songwriting, I keep meaning to lean more heavily on this collection of silly band names that I've kept for the last 3+ years. Whenever someone says something funny or particularly interesting, I record it. It started as just kind of a joke, but after reading that guided by voices book, my list is not unlike the song seeds that Bob Pollard always came up with. (additionally, a band from kalamazoo that I liked called kissmequick (and their later band, wizard attack) did this too.
Here are some recent additions:
Grown-up little league
Your dollars are under the knife
Straight up analog lunch space
The ambitious flake
Minimizing classification
The _____ of being unremarkable
The curse of always going half way
Swamp lemons
10 year olds with specialized tastes
Four year boomer ritual
Living in the laundry room


Some are a little more heady than others, but most seem interesting enough that you could build something around them. Some I remember the context that they came from, others I have no idea. There's an old one I've been working on: "harry homes for owls", that was from a conversation Helena and I had when we first started dating. We were walking to the taco shop (a Robertos, for all you San Diego folks) at dusk.. magic hour? and I was talking about how weird palm trees are up close. It's a jokey phrase, but since there's a whole scene around it, I'd really like to make it into something pseudo-romantic. ..which is really not my forte. My first attempt turned it into a tour of Bird Rock, the area that I worked in out there. Not even particularly from my point of view. And then that turned into a perspective switch to one of the neighborhood bums...

All the way from PB
to the birdrock roundabouts
walking down the street in a wet suit
eating snowcones out of a lean-to
Have you ever seen such a sea?
I've got everything I need.

smoking butts under the stairs
thinking about cashing in for a ride up to the county fair
been sweating in this blazer for the last two weeks
all i own is this backpack and these worn out 'sneaks
it's a strange life


Not very good, but starting is 90% of a thing. Ironically, the harry homes for owls line didn't even make it in.. maybe they are separate songs. 

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So, yeah.. It's been over a month since I've had a decent workout. I've done a couple of light trainer rides and a couple of yoga vinyasas, but not much. I've been ruminating about how to resurrect some semblance of fitness. The big hurdle is still that I don't have a lot of interest in riding. or doing anything other than reading or sitting in front of a computer. Full on escapism, I guess.

Anyhow, I'm again toying with the idea of hiring a coach. The problem here is that for that to do anything (and not annoy the coach) I'd really need some kind of goal.. and there isn't really one. At least not right now. I guess any cycling goal is tied to competition, and for whatever reason, I shut down every time I sign up for an event. I don't know if this related to my string of DNFs in '17 when I was hitting the ultra endurance stuff hard, or if it's something else. Also kind of curious if there are coaches who have experience working with depressed athletes. I could easily see a coach being frustrated during the times that I can't switch on the Type A. Regardless, I have a few in mind, and am planning to "interview" them so to speak.

Another angle.. I started cycling seriously as an effort to build a new social group. And it worked really well.. but then I changed geography.. and then changed it again. I was doing a lot of group rides last year, but I wasn't really making any friends. This has me considering joining a team; something I feel weird about for some reasons.. 1. I don't plan on doing any racing 2. paying money to be on a team rubs me the wrong way 3. options are very limited, and if I want to be able to ride with the team and not drive an hour to get there, I'm even more limited. Anyway.. considering it.

Toying with the idea of yoga classes.. but that is pretty far down the list.



Maybe the most successful idea I've had so far - buy more crap. I ordered a couple of pairs of winter bike shoes. A couple because one order was using a pro-deal that I probably shouldn't have any more and may fall through.. plus, I'm not sure how fitment will go. Still, this has been enough to get me thinking about riding again. Should be a week before either pair of shoes shows up, so we'll see how it goes then. Here are the options..
Fizik Arctica X5
Specialized defroster








PRs

May. 2nd, 2018 10:35 am
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In this case, I'm talking about "Personal Record", not "Public Relations". Yesterday I rode in to work, and used the excuse to hit the trail down the street from the office. Physical exertion is tougher in the AM, but it has long been a goal to do something physical early so that all systems are firing sooner. 

Anyhow, I went back after work and did two more laps, the first of which was a new PR for me. 26s faster than my previous best. Doesn't sound like much, but over a 6.5 mile course that I've probably ridden a hundred times now, it's pretty good. (see the chart below to see the limited range in times) Not to mention that I'm now on a bike that is 7 pounds heavier than my previous best, AND I am in pretty crappy shape comparatively. I mostly write it off to the AM ride as a leg opener, but what ever. 




Over my short vacation, I was struggling to have the motivation to ride. I'm not sure what brought it back yesterday. I also managed to get a little recovery ride on the trainer today. 


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A teammate and I - I'm in the blue and white helmet

So I did the 200 mile race. ..but I stopped at 100 miles. I had a good time though. The first 50 miles were great. The gravel was packed down and fast, and there were several rocky downhills that were fun to fly down. The second 50 miles were a little tougher. a lot more climbing, and I had burnt up a lot of energy by that point. I ended up walking several hills, but still made a decent pace. (averaged 12mph) Towards mil 100, I started struggling, but not for the reasons I normally might.. My heart rate was super low, and I wasn't exactly tired. I think it was mostly that my arms were exhausted - something that I usually don't ride enough to encounter. I'm sure the rocky terrain didn't help. I just didn't have the mental toughness/strategy to cope with that flavor of discomfort. I think I also was a little dehydrated. I stopped at the 100 mile checkpoint and decided to stay even though I didn't feel particularly bad. It didn't help that I was dumb and entered the race on a single speed bike.

FTR, I felt the strongest that day that I have in months. I think I did a lot of things right, especially nutrition and hydration. The first 50 miles I was feeling so good, I didn't drink as much water or energy drink as I should have. But I ate hourly, and it worked ok. My bike worked well too. I was worried about my tire situation.. especially the front, which wasn't intended to be used tubeless, had blown off the week before, and was observably leaking the day be for the race. it worked fine during the race. the rear seemed low a couple times, and I stopped to fill it up, but I think it was just my mind playing tricks on me. I also managed to get rid of all the creaks and rattles that I'd been dealing with prior to the race. Saddle didn't hurt until the last mile.

In retrospect, I think I would have done ok had I continued on. My performance and feelings at the end would mean "you're done" on a regular length ride, but I think for this distance, I was really ok. My brain just wasn't ready to accept that.

I'm glad it's over with. I had told myself that I wouldn't do this again. Really, I think that was mostly because the anxiety of having had to enter the race 6 months ago and worry about training all that time really wore heavily on me. After having done it, I actually enjoyed it, and part of me is a little bummed I didn't complete it. I could see trying it again, and maybe using a regular multi speed bike to finish it, but I'm still not sure about that 6 month worry time, and honestly, the whole thing was pretty expensive when you add up a $250 entry fee, couple hundred support crew fee, two days vacay time, gas to drive to kansas and back, hotel, equipment/nutrition used, etc, etc. We'll see. Right now I'm happy to just be able to ride for fun on whichever bike I feel like at the time.


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